Hello Friends!! This has been an interesting last few weeks. I have been looking for a job in a very specific field and it has been tough. Along with the bills coming like they are supposed to do, I have been having intimate conversations with God. Remember the book "Conversations with God"? Well, I have been having some. But it is interesting how they turned out.
They started out with me on my knees crying big huge tears with one-word statements such as "Why?" "How?" "When?" I have been sad, angry, hurt, confused, disappointed, and a whole bunch of other emotions. I got really intimate with God. I had to. My pain wouldn't allow me to do anything else other than get real personal and transparent. But how our conversations started is NOT how they ended.
My intimate conversations ended with me hearing God tell me how he really feels about me. They turned into God telling me what he really thought about some of past behaviors and attitudes. Only when you get into an intimate conversation can you really begin to be free in a relationship. All pretenses and boundaries are eliminated.
I am grateful that I had the time to get intimate with God. I can even hear Him calling me now for a conversation..gotta go!
Blessings,
Aurellia
